A while back I felt the Lord prompting me to do something that I really didn’t want to do. I started reflecting on why I didn’t want to obey God’s leading and after giving it some thought and prayer I realized that what was hindering me could be summed up in one word– fear.
When it came right down to it I was afraid of so many things. Afraid of failing and not only failing but making a complete and utter fool of myself. Afraid of being vulnerable and to be honest I was afraid of the spiritual attack that would come as a result of my obedience to God.
I really wanted to obey but I was having a hard time believing that God could do much of anything with my offering. I felt I didn’t have much to bring and I doubted my ability to make a difference.
“Who would listen to me?”
“This will be a waste of my time.”
“Nobody cares what I have to say.”
ran through my mind and I was letting those negative thoughts get the better of me.
I was praying over this whole situation when God brought a bible story found in Numbers chapters 13&14 to mind. In that story God promised His people a good land flowing with milk and honey, a land of abundance. He had just delivered them from slavery in Egypt and performed many miracles to set them free. In order for the Israelites to take over the plentiful land He had in store for them they would need to conquer the current inhabitants who were much bigger than they were. God sent twelve men to spy on the land and bring back a report.
Both Caleb and Joshua were full of faith and wanted to go forward and take over the land God promised them; but the other ten spies doubted themselves and God’s ability and let fear control them. They brought back a bad report and stirred up so much unbelief in the congregation that everyone started talking about turning back to Egypt to live their life as a slave.
Ultimately, they didn’t turn back but they didn’t move forward either. As a result, they stayed stagnant for many years then complained and blamed God that they were stuck.
Like the Israelites, I was stuck due to my lack of unbelief and fear. My being stuck was my own fault because of my lack of follow through.
When we feel stuck or stagnant in life try to remember the last thing you felt God leading you to do, if it lines up with God’s word and would bring Him glory, then move forward whether you feel afraid or not.
When we give into fear and insecurities we miss out on the blessings and abundant life God has in store for us.
It’s normal to feel afraid when taking on something new but it’s important not to let our fear control us. We need to learn to have courage and move forward in spite of fear.
When I’m afraid one of the things that helps me is to reflect on how God has worked in my life in the past. How He has got me through hard times, worked miracles or answered prayers. Remember, he’s been with you this far and He won’t stop showing up for you now.
Prayer– Thank you Lord for being a God who is with me, for me and who dwells inside of me. I pray that you will help me be obedient to your leading, to trust you and your plan. In Jesus’ name, amen.